I moan about how quickly time passes and lo and behold, this blog proves it to me. I was thinking the other day, “hmm, I don’t think I’ve updated my blog lately” but I surely did not think it was last August since I actually wrote something! I have so many great ideas about things to post; clever, insightful jottings that would make everybody ponder my thoughts and want to hear more. But when I get home, nada. Nothing is there. It is a type of brain freeze that seems to have no end for me. My children often point out to me that I am not as __________ as I think I am (clever, funny, helpful – you fill in the blank!). My good intentions are not getting the job done! I seem to let time run over me such that I do not keep in touch with the people I love through phone calls or emails. Sure, I might hit like on your Facebook post but is that really the kind of relationship I want with people that I care for? I couldn’t even find time to write a quick blog post to keep folks up to date on the busy life that I seem to have fallen into.
But really, don’t we find time for the things we really want to get done? So what part of me wants to be a hermit? It isn’t just with my personal life. My professional life has become pretty secluded as well. I used to bubble over with joy and happiness just to be doing whatever I happened to be doing at the time. But I’ve lost that part of me. And with that loss, I’ve lost the part of me that would communicate with others. I often feel that in the great scheme of life, I’m fairly insignificant and I’ve convinced myself that I would be a bother if I called someone. I’ve withdrawn from life. It is a hard feeling to overcome so be patient with me when I don’t call or I don’t even email. I am working on it…..