My work situation is a source of constant stress. My boss wrote a bad review and recommended my “dismissal” and I was sent home to work. I’ve been working on a rebuttal to his assessment for submittal to a boss that is higher up the chain. I met with the union representative earlier this week and was told it was time to turn in the response. What a relief!! As long as it wasn’t turned in, I felt that I needed to work on it. I kept tweaking it and adding information and to be honest, I felt stuck in the process. As long as the due date loomed in the future, I couldn’t commit to saying it was finished. But now I know definitively that I am done and it is a good feeling.
Unfortunately, the union rep doesn’t feel there is much of a chance of overturning my boss’ assessment. Maybe a 5% chance of succeeding and being reinstated to my job. I’ve been off long enough now that I had already come to that conclusion so it wasn’t a bitter pill for me. But just to cover all of my bases, I also went to consult with a lawyer. I don’t want to look back at this and wish I had done more to get reinstated so I figured a consultation with an employment lawyer would be another step to check off on my quest for fairness. The consultation went as expected and I heard information that I already knew. It would be hard to prove any type of discrimination and expensive. It would cost 5 to 10,000 dollars with no guarantee of success. That is definitely money that I do not have.
So today, I put in my intent to retire on February 3, 2017. It was like filling my lungs with helium. I felt instantly lighter and had a sense of looking forward to the future. Suddenly, February 3 can’t come soon enough! I talked to a retirement counselor who was very helpful; I started feeling more optimistic about life in general. I don’t necessarily want to leave NASA with such a black cloud over my record but I’m letting go of that. I always said that I would retire at my first opportunity and that would have been at my last birthday so this may be just the thing to make changes to move me towards happiness. I am definitely looking forward to starting my retirement at the beginning of next month……..